Surgery, Life, and True Love....

Greetings friends, it's been quite some time since I posted my last blog. This blog will most likely NOT be one of my normal blogs but you know.. Let's just roll with it an see what happens. There has been a lot of things happening since I last updated you on the mind of Friggen Ben. I will share with you that I am sitting here at work on Sunday, October 3rd during Conversion weekend. Unfortunately, things are a bit unorganized at the moment and I actually have a bit of free time to sit and organize my thoughts. I will caution the casual reader who has not read my other blogs that this may be a little more in directed and insightful then some past blogs. Either way.. I hope you enjoy this friendly look into my life.

I would first like to give an update to all of my friends/family that frequent my blog with regards to my surgery. I have completed ALL of my tests required for surgery. My Pre-Op appointment is scheduled for October 15th. My surgery is now scheduled for November 9th. I am super excited for that because it has definitely been a long road with lots of obstacles and hard work.

With that update out of the way, let me move on to the good stuff. I have met someone. Not just anyone. I think I may have actually met THE ONE... The one that EVERYONE seeks in their lives'... The soul mate that makes you feel as though nothing else in your life was ever as important... The one that makes your heart melt when you hear their voice... The one who you just can't wait to see again and spend time with... The one that just feels so right that you hope the moment never ends.

About a month ago, I was sitting at work and I was checking out the Facebook status messages for the day on my break and I stumbled on one from a nice woman whom I went to high school with. She was having a bad day. For whatever reason, I don't know what possessed me to do it, I felt the urge to check her profile page to see if she had a phone number listed. Turns out she did. So, with that phone number in hand I proceeded to text her with a motivating text in an effort to cheer her up and to try and bring a smile to her face... and the rest was history as they say.

That text on that day.. actually led to my very own text from HER the following day as I was having a bad day at work. The text was very nice and it did make my day sooo much better. It was then that we began to talk in the evening via text message. What started out as little conversations turned into lengthy conversations via text as well as Facebook chat and Yahoo messenger. I found myself staying up quite late EVERY night just for the chance to talk to this individual.

We met in person at a Mansfield Senior High football game for the first time in 16-17 years. It was nice to meet in person although it was a nervous, anxious time for both of us. We met in a more formal setting for dinner later that week and through the course of that week we talked and we talked and we made a connection that I have never made with ANYONE in my entire life. We shared things with each other that would normally take MONTHS to come out and talk about.

Throughout the last month, I can tell everyone that I think that.. let me change that.. I KNOW THAT someone special has came into my life. To have someone who respects me for me, who doesn't care about what I look like, or what flaws I might have, and understands that I am human and make mistakes, and also understands the hurt I have been through.. is refreshing. I have never met a more amazing woman. She is beautiful in every sense of the word, both inside and out. I would never imagine that I would find someone who is so special in my entire life.

I have been hurt very bad in my past.. and, having gone through that I have not allowed myself to open up too many people. The walls I hide behind protect me from being hurt, but generally they prevent me from getting too close to anyone. This woman has made it so easy to talk too... she has melted those walls... she has eased my fears and I trust her with my heart and I know there is something different about her. For the FIRST time in my life I believe I can say that perhaps I do believe in true love. I have never felt like this EVER!!

By now, I am sure you think I am a rambling fool... and you are right. I am a mess.. I have never felt like I do right now. Things seem so right. Things seem so good. Be happy for me. Be happy for us. Thank you everyone for the time you take to read my blogs. I could go on and on but I think this is a good place to stop. My next blog will be after my Pre-Op appointment. Have a good week friends.